Blog is a narcissistic medium?
In my previous post I made it clear that personal homepage and blogs are similar. Eventhough I made my own personal homepage in 1994, long before they have geocities.com, then why haven’t I made my own blogpage until now? As I recall, I stopped ‘playing around’ with my website since late 1997, after I left Radnet to study abroad.
I guess, I don’t really know how or what to write in a blog, other than things that are too personal and (what I think) have no educational or informational value to others. For me, it’s like an-open-to-public personal diary. So, I can’t help to write something narcissistic in nature.
The problem is, I dislike narcissistic people. I don’t want to become one of them. So it become a constant struggle for me, as if I’m Anakin who was tempted with the dark side of the force (there I go again..).
But then I remember how was the younger me once eager to hook-up with the net. I used to say to myself “I want to connect with people”, “I want to share (upload) things” and “I want to get (download) things”. I mean… that’s essence of the net. If you worried for being (or becoming) narcissistic or not, then don’t go online. I don’t know the meaning of narcissistic until few years back. So I think the word is being abused to much only recently, probably in the Friendster and blogging era.
From now on, I’ll try to start blogging… regularly if i can manage and for whatever contents.. I don’t care. Hopefully some people can find it useful. Ta da.